Thanks Mom

I would like to dedicate this post to;  as she is saved in the contacts list in my cellular device, Master of The Womb.  Mom, Mum, Momsie, Mama, however you address your lovely give her a double high five from me and make sure you give her a good bear hug.

So like my Mom took me shopping on the weekend. Nooooooooo that's not the only reason for the appreciation. BUT. She bought me groceries, gave me money for gas just so darn unconditionally, I saw a totally different side of her.

My Mom and me have always had a funny relationship. Funny like she calls me Mom.. don't ask.  She had 2 pet doves and named one Raisha. I taught her how to email right, and for atleast a year she wrote all her emails in the subject line. I told her every time and it wasn't until one day she asked

"How do you make your emails bigger?"

I realized she had no idea what she was doing and that just telling her wouldn't help.

If life isn't full circle man I just don't know what shape it is. I told my Mom I quit my job and she said

"Well. That's okay."

I can usually hear her turn around and tell the rest of my family members the 20/20 on my current affairs. This time she didn't . That's okay was all she said.  Instead of back and forth between who's in the background , her and me, there was just a peaceful sort of understanding air.

I went down to see her on the weekend. We just chilled , shopped, ate and were merry. I cooked Okonomiyaki and she loved it, SHE NEVER EATS ANYTHING I COOK.

Is this adulthood? Are the clouds that used to hover over our relationship opening to clear blue skies?
Or she is so disappointed in me she rather just play it off and has since been filling paperwork for disownment...

MOM IF YOU'RE READING THIS I JUST LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND WANT TO TELL YOU AND THE INTERNET.

She just gets me , and loves me and feeds me soul food. I just felt so blown away and I feel bad it took this long to see how wonderful she is, but such is life I guess. I've learnt the most appreciation worthy moments often come when you take something that was always there and just look from another angle.

Anyways,  I start working at Ferrero next Tuesday. (..I'll be looking like Augustus Gloop by the following Tuesday... ) Meanwhile I am trying to get started to study to be a ESL Teacher! I know absolutely nothing about how the post secondary school systems works and I call Mohawk College like very 2 hrs and 53 seconds to ask a question.

Today I sat in the general inquires office and made 2 origami boxes while I waited... I think they're putting me last on the inquires list..

Hug your Mama again if you didn't already. Don't forget a double high five from me.

Until next time <3 <3

Quits Job and Says Thing Like..

↣I quit my job Monday, twice. Their going to mail the cheque.

↪I've always wanted to walk out of an office with my box of cubicle goodies .

↳The book I started reading says 
"nothing is more unbearable, once one has it, than freedom", 
Monday was the eclipse.
Here I am.

↻The job got me this far where I am content. The perhaps after shock of my earth quake shook me to pursue environments where I can be more____ je ne sais quoi..

↷My goal is to sustain myself on conscious community culture. I am much better off spending 7.5 hrs a day 5 days a week this way. 

⇘Everything is what you make it.

↠I didn't ask.  You answered. That's your breath not mine.

↣We're all doing it for the first time.

⇢I watered my plants and it rained. Sometimes you just don't know.

⇰I shouldn't have to talk about my vagina to be heard. 

↭Don't blame the system change it.

↘"A none toxic radical blluuuee"

↱Its not the system that fails people, it's people who fail people (yes inevitably  “the system" as it be, is run by people.)

⇄Arctic Monkey- Teddy Picker. (last verse.)

⇛caboom.

🌱✊🏼✌🏼

--Misleading

Coming back to this,
Match
Strike once, twice. .

"Third times the charm"

Living cliche
Living Monday with the longing to surpass Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday to Friday 16:00.

Here I am Wednesday. Pay Day. Blog Day. 

Making ends meet.

Artful/passionful/productive outlets are key. My front door right now is locked . 7:30 I leave for work. Locking it behind me again. Last night I had a dance party for 2. Today I will do the same with numbers and cibc tellers. 

"I look forward to speaking with you."

We've now tailored our messages at work to be more personal. 

It's all very interesting, I wish I could say more .

THIS SUNDAY I'M HAVING A HOUSE WARMING

"Aritag ttoooaaassst" 

I missed you. Stay weird.  

Before I'm Gone Forever..

It's been 2 weeks me and this apartment have lived together. And I think it's a forever thing. The freedom is a beautiful comfort and a stone which I've stumbled on. I just got to the bottom of the fall today , I got up and watched a video being created by a wonderful human I used to live with. It shook me from a gorgeous slumber.

I told him it took my breath away.

I got a couch this weekend and my place is really looking like a home.  $35 at value village, thin wooded frame with these lush, suave, sleek black cushions. It's perfect.

Last weekend I got a bed after 7 days on make shift sleeping apparatuses.

I've eaten breakfast on the floor in front of the window where I now have 4 potted plants.

I baked 3 cakes without baking powder... they're all shit.

I have been in my own world. Ambitioning and procrastinating until today.

"When I'm ready though."

There's only so much of your time you can give to the world before you realise you're never getting it back.

I got a bit reckless.

But I'm back .

This morning was extremely refreshing. I filled a few pages of a vibrant green notebook, writing with a matching vibrant pen . I had to switch writing utensils twice. There is nothing more frustrating than a pen thats ink starts to skip , than the 2nd pen literally exploded . 3rd pink ink baby love carried me 6 pages until I finished my coffee and settled my emotions.

slowly but surely

just whistling and balancing.

stay tuned.