Home sweet home,
the last one I'll know
cause you're all I need.
Home sweet home,
where loves grows
blossoming and blooming all around;
Preparing feasts
between the sheets
shower songs
and bedtime lulubyes.
Our oasis for
family festivities and
an assured atmosphere.
Home sweet home
I'm so glad to call you
ours.
Friday, 31 May 2019
Friday, 24 May 2019
Ready?
I was not ready to be a Mom or a Step Mom or come home from my voyages abroad or go across the world in the first place. I wanted and needed more time, I wasn't ready to graduate or move out or move in. It all happened so suddenly, surely I wasn't ready; to become a woman or tie my shoes or try seafood and that's just as much as I can remember.
I'm still not ready to figure out what to do next. Part of me wants to let the universe take me under its wing and fly me somewhere, like an olive branch ready to begin in the new world. My better judgement perhaps, has the next 5 years in an agenda with goals organized by colour; long term, immediate, stepping stone. The last bit of decision making left in me is the partisan for naps.
Most of the moments that shaped who I am at this very time and place I was not "ready" for. Isn't that one of the seven wonders of the world? Number seven - being ready, six- experiencing firsts, five-learning, four-loving, three-speaking up and out, two-patience and silence, NUMBER ONE..? Well if I knew that then I'd really be smart.
Have you ever had the "where I would be if..." conversation with someone? Where do you think you'd be if... you hadn't gotten that job or if you did? Where do you think you'd be if you took that chance or gave it to someone else? Yesterday my love gave me the most remarkable answer. He said "I don't like to waste energy thinking in a parallel universe when I need that energy to make my dreams a reality, with you, now. " I definitely wasn't ready for that answer. The truth is sometimes ready for us before we are for it I suppose.
Julius and I spend our days solving some of life's toughest daily conundrums (eg.what to wear, did you poop, are you hungry, is it nap time yet?) at this point in the game I'm feeling really comfortable with my mommy duties. We're 5.5 months in so half-time is just around the corner which means work and school are only a September away! Ideally I'll be staying at home until Julius starts kindergarten. Some days when I think of doing what we're doing now, for the next three years I think I may never be ready to take on the world again.
That auspicious word; ready, as if readiness decides the outcome of what is waiting. I'd like the think the most prominent change makers in the word were less than ready to make changes transpire the way they did. Maybe it was in the agenda a few days earlier or later. They could have even been watching and wishing for someone else's success on the matter.
Hence the renowned quote " I didn't choose the (insert lyfe type here) the lyfe chose me."
Right now my goal is using my energy daily to stay content with my surroundings. For me that means keeping organized and well scented. I have a daily routine of house wifery I do and I break that up by doing things that are on track with my aspirations. My aspirations long term, short term and immediately. Now that may all make me sound a bit pretentious, so let me tell you a secret... Naspire: A nap to refresh oneself and feel inspired again. Because some days (or weeks) I just need to refresh my mind before I feel ready again. Ready to put on pants or ready get a house full of humans ready to be somewhere we needed to be 15 minutes ago.
So are you ready yet?
To give yourself a break or to clock back in? Ready to prune yourself of dead weight and bloom? Ready to forgive? Probably not right.. well whatever it is you may just want to drink another coffee (or g&t), schedule yourself a 3 o'clock nap for next Wednesday and get ready to be a lot less ready and much more willing and able.
I'm still not ready to figure out what to do next. Part of me wants to let the universe take me under its wing and fly me somewhere, like an olive branch ready to begin in the new world. My better judgement perhaps, has the next 5 years in an agenda with goals organized by colour; long term, immediate, stepping stone. The last bit of decision making left in me is the partisan for naps.
Most of the moments that shaped who I am at this very time and place I was not "ready" for. Isn't that one of the seven wonders of the world? Number seven - being ready, six- experiencing firsts, five-learning, four-loving, three-speaking up and out, two-patience and silence, NUMBER ONE..? Well if I knew that then I'd really be smart.
Have you ever had the "where I would be if..." conversation with someone? Where do you think you'd be if... you hadn't gotten that job or if you did? Where do you think you'd be if you took that chance or gave it to someone else? Yesterday my love gave me the most remarkable answer. He said "I don't like to waste energy thinking in a parallel universe when I need that energy to make my dreams a reality, with you, now. " I definitely wasn't ready for that answer. The truth is sometimes ready for us before we are for it I suppose.
Julius and I spend our days solving some of life's toughest daily conundrums (eg.what to wear, did you poop, are you hungry, is it nap time yet?) at this point in the game I'm feeling really comfortable with my mommy duties. We're 5.5 months in so half-time is just around the corner which means work and school are only a September away! Ideally I'll be staying at home until Julius starts kindergarten. Some days when I think of doing what we're doing now, for the next three years I think I may never be ready to take on the world again.
That auspicious word; ready, as if readiness decides the outcome of what is waiting. I'd like the think the most prominent change makers in the word were less than ready to make changes transpire the way they did. Maybe it was in the agenda a few days earlier or later. They could have even been watching and wishing for someone else's success on the matter.
Hence the renowned quote " I didn't choose the (insert lyfe type here) the lyfe chose me."
Right now my goal is using my energy daily to stay content with my surroundings. For me that means keeping organized and well scented. I have a daily routine of house wifery I do and I break that up by doing things that are on track with my aspirations. My aspirations long term, short term and immediately. Now that may all make me sound a bit pretentious, so let me tell you a secret... Naspire: A nap to refresh oneself and feel inspired again. Because some days (or weeks) I just need to refresh my mind before I feel ready again. Ready to put on pants or ready get a house full of humans ready to be somewhere we needed to be 15 minutes ago.
So are you ready yet?
To give yourself a break or to clock back in? Ready to prune yourself of dead weight and bloom? Ready to forgive? Probably not right.. well whatever it is you may just want to drink another coffee (or g&t), schedule yourself a 3 o'clock nap for next Wednesday and get ready to be a lot less ready and much more willing and able.
Friday, 10 May 2019
Hello Again
I just realized I totally forgot to blog last week, as I pre-announced the topic would be "Things I Think I Got Away With Because I Have a Baby". It's partly to blame on something we in the industry call "mom brain"..so hows about we add; Forgetting to Blog to the list and I'll pull it out again if something remarkable comes up.
Speaking of remarkable, yesterday was my birthday, I rang in 23 years of life on earth! This week I've been gifting my self a lil' something something every day. I believe it's truly the best way to celebrate being born, it surely didn't take just a day to create a human. Imagine if we all got to celebrate from conception date to birthdate!
When I say lil' something something I genuinely mean lil, smaller than little, just tiny, "smoll" if you will, possibly even regular daily activities that I just proclaimed as gifts to moi. Nothing lavish or expensive but all very valuable to me and my life.
I started off with a shopping trip. I gave my self a small super affordable budget and set off to a thrift shop just walking distance from my house! It was the perfect time of day , the store wasn't busy and it seemed like they must have just gotten a good haul of things in. I got 2 gorgeous dresses and a track set for Julius. This was also the first time I've gotten myself a dress since being pregnant, so I was super happy I found something that fit my new body and my new needs! (eg. breastfeeding friendly neckline)
My next treat was a creativity binge. I finally got to making the adjustments to some clothing I had stacked up on my sewing table. My endeavours with clothing alterations are going so well I really feel like I can open my shopping size and gender limit. Anything with a pattern I like, that fits the season, I should be able to make into a personally tailored piece. What a treat eh! I also made myself a mixtape. Now... I drive in a vehicle without automatic locks, windows and ...no auxiliary input. So I make CD'S and listening to the same 12 songs everywhere I go. I appropriately named this disc "23".
(I'll post the playlist on my youtube channel)
One of the best gifts on earth is friendship and my Wednesday was spent in good company. Snacks and chats on a comfy couch with Julius, my good friend and my bae. I couldn't have asked for a better afternoon!
Finally the day of my Birth I had planned to get some photos developed from our maternity shoot than go check out the Hamilton Art Gallery. Neither of those things happened and I got duped by a parking metre. I just considered that all a surprise gift from the universe that came in the form of a little less learned; never be downtown during the lunch hour if you don't know your way around and you have a baby in stroller.
Today until the weekend-end I'll be in party mode!!
*que disco lights, bass and soul train *
Tomorrow we are throwing a soiree with friends , food and festivities. This will conclude my week of birth jubilations. Of course Sunday will be spent cleaning and helping the guests recover from their hearty party antics. I wish everyone reading could join in the fun!
But then again you can, enjoy spoiling yourself for a few days if you need to or want to. With simple and AFFORDABLE treats that remind you just how sweet you are!! Your favourite movie, some take out or book , enjoy some YOU time!
ps. Now that I'm finished my online biology unit, I'm harvesting some creative ingredients and getting ready to launch some more things that will be available for the public.
Until next week. Stay birthy <3
Speaking of remarkable, yesterday was my birthday, I rang in 23 years of life on earth! This week I've been gifting my self a lil' something something every day. I believe it's truly the best way to celebrate being born, it surely didn't take just a day to create a human. Imagine if we all got to celebrate from conception date to birthdate!
When I say lil' something something I genuinely mean lil, smaller than little, just tiny, "smoll" if you will, possibly even regular daily activities that I just proclaimed as gifts to moi. Nothing lavish or expensive but all very valuable to me and my life.
I started off with a shopping trip. I gave my self a small super affordable budget and set off to a thrift shop just walking distance from my house! It was the perfect time of day , the store wasn't busy and it seemed like they must have just gotten a good haul of things in. I got 2 gorgeous dresses and a track set for Julius. This was also the first time I've gotten myself a dress since being pregnant, so I was super happy I found something that fit my new body and my new needs! (eg. breastfeeding friendly neckline)
My next treat was a creativity binge. I finally got to making the adjustments to some clothing I had stacked up on my sewing table. My endeavours with clothing alterations are going so well I really feel like I can open my shopping size and gender limit. Anything with a pattern I like, that fits the season, I should be able to make into a personally tailored piece. What a treat eh! I also made myself a mixtape. Now... I drive in a vehicle without automatic locks, windows and ...no auxiliary input. So I make CD'S and listening to the same 12 songs everywhere I go. I appropriately named this disc "23".
(I'll post the playlist on my youtube channel)
One of the best gifts on earth is friendship and my Wednesday was spent in good company. Snacks and chats on a comfy couch with Julius, my good friend and my bae. I couldn't have asked for a better afternoon!
Finally the day of my Birth I had planned to get some photos developed from our maternity shoot than go check out the Hamilton Art Gallery. Neither of those things happened and I got duped by a parking metre. I just considered that all a surprise gift from the universe that came in the form of a little less learned; never be downtown during the lunch hour if you don't know your way around and you have a baby in stroller.
Today until the weekend-end I'll be in party mode!!
*que disco lights, bass and soul train *
Tomorrow we are throwing a soiree with friends , food and festivities. This will conclude my week of birth jubilations. Of course Sunday will be spent cleaning and helping the guests recover from their hearty party antics. I wish everyone reading could join in the fun!
But then again you can, enjoy spoiling yourself for a few days if you need to or want to. With simple and AFFORDABLE treats that remind you just how sweet you are!! Your favourite movie, some take out or book , enjoy some YOU time!
ps. Now that I'm finished my online biology unit, I'm harvesting some creative ingredients and getting ready to launch some more things that will be available for the public.
Until next week. Stay birthy <3
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