I Just..

I just sat down the other day and started thinking about how I feel as a Mum and how I could describe  my insight into this new role. Incidentally it was after I had done a spring cleaning of the whole house, knowing the fresh scent and dust freedom wouldn't last much longer than those five minutes I had to sit. I came up with a little list of two word phrases I would use to describe motherhood. Topping the list , being most relevant to me is the phrase "I just.." followed by and exclaimed in various situations.

I jussssttt saw *insert childs name*, where is she or slightly less frightening because there's safety in numbers, where are they? This is used most often in parks or any other public place. Usually in some sort of anxious, borderline angry state, on the contrary, some days at the park it's more of "I jusssst pushed you for 15 minutes straight , how about you go down the slide now." That's a tired and playful state wherein my mind is telling me sit down and my body can't stop pushing the swinging child "higher" (attempts to walk away) "HIGHER!"

I just fed you. I say this 30 minutes after breast feeding and about 15 minutes after dinner when the babes are asking if they can have a snack. This is actually one of my biggest pet peeves but I'm trying not to take it personally. I'm really working on overcoming this don't worry. 1. I tell myself it's not because my food's terrible. 2. I change the topic of conversation for five minutes than when the "I'm full" comes up again I say "ok just finish your..." and repeat this tactic until the meal gets finished or closer too. And 3. since we don't own a microwave it's easier to dish out some crackers and cheese than it is to warm up left overs.

I JUST..! Your interpretation of typed fonts has probably informed you that "I just" is said in anger. I JUST TOLD YOU NOT TOO... ; is the most common introduction to whatever question was asked about candy, toys, movies, being there yet or playing with something more valuable than it is playful. Oh and of course used to halt fighting and the touching of a siblings precious random thing. Or yelling. Or running, jumping , floor sqirming and stair sliding. Or opening kitchen drawers and putting body weight into it instead of utensils. Or playing with the soap. Or asking why. Or...
I should move on.

I just love when: we watch family movies and cozy up together, I hear someone talking to their bath toys, Julius laughs at his brother being silly, I'm asked a question that challenges me to sound like I really know what I'm talking about. One of my most proud "I just love when" moments is when we're all piled into the car on our way to something that we're actually going to be on time for. And on the way back when everyones asleep. I really just love when I hear all four babes enjoying some shenanigan that they've imaginated deeper and deeper into. I mean turning a pile of wood and a garden rake into some sort of sport with aliens and dead grass. It's messy afterwards but the type of mess that's more like a fossil of fun times than a burden.

I just remembered... This is my demise lately. Last week I left my phone at the park, another day same week my wallet at the store. I've missed appointments and came a day early for another. I'll buy pasta sauce when we have six jars at home but forget bread... Mom brain. Again don't worry I'm overcoming this as well.  Also on my list of short punch lines for motherhood was; Bed time! Let's go, Not today, Not now, Not yet, I'm tired, ONE...TWO...

Now I don't mean to reduce motherhood down to short temperaments. There could never be enough of a word count available to truly sum up the infinite love and prosperity that motherhood encompasses. I'd love to hear some other personal punch lines, comment on here or my socials and tell me your two words.